INTERLOCUTION
Hetal
Chudasama
At First, You will close your E Y E S

Still from the Video - At first you Will Close Your Eyes,. Presented at Artsadmin London 2021
Technologically amplified scarcity of human attention and physical presence.
It’s time--- wake up___
Wake up
It’s time
Mushrooms? Describe the memory of mushrooms in wild?

At first you will close your eyes –
Then your ears
shut flush with both of your palms-
Your throat
--- your throat
have been dry for quite sometimes –
You stay acutely present
Amidst the parched walls of your throat
you marvel at the friction of your vocal codes
Parched –dried – stained coarse plea
And you say
…that you did not know
You did not know-
With a changed hollows in your voice ====
…. you wonder…
grab hold of some genuine shock
surpriced
To relive yourself of the guilt
Guilt of having watched and not moved
Guilt of having smelled the scent
You nervously rub your fingers around your mouth, your lips, your nose
Sniffing out the faint memory of the scent of trials
Your hands move upwards to your forehead,
You wipe moist bubbles of anxiety
Your fingers contorted travel upwards
Like a comb scraping and scooping your hair between them,
your nail creating paths on your scalp
Up and down
With both hands, rubbing your face ,
your nose , scratching and smothering your eyelids as if attempting to open them clearly after a ritualistic message in order to see - or to
to wipe
You didn’t see anything,
you could have not seen anything
but why … why they you feel –your throat dry
The inner walls of your throats sticking to each other
Friction of thought and the throat is real
You think of nothing else but water
---------------- water… water… water…