Hetal 
Chudasama

At First, You will close your E Y E S
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Still from the Video - At first you Will Close Your Eyes,. Presented at Artsadmin London 2021

Technologically amplified scarcity of human attention and physical presence.

It’s time--- wake up___

Wake up

It’s time

Mushrooms? Describe the memory of mushrooms in wild?

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At first you will close your eyes –

Then your ears

shut flush with both of your palms-

Your throat

--- your throat

have been dry for quite sometimes –

 

You stay acutely present

Amidst the parched walls of your throat

you marvel at the friction of your vocal codes

Parched –dried – stained coarse plea

And you say

…that you did not know

You did not know-

With a changed hollows in your voice ====

       …. you wonder…

           grab hold of some genuine shock

surpriced

To relive yourself of the guilt

Guilt of having watched and not moved  

Guilt of having smelled the scent

You nervously rub your fingers around your mouth, your lips, your nose

Sniffing out the faint memory of the scent of trials

Your hands move upwards to your forehead,

You wipe moist bubbles of anxiety

Your fingers contorted travel upwards

Like a comb scraping and scooping your hair between them, 

your nail creating paths on your scalp

Up and down

With both hands, rubbing your face ,

your nose , scratching and smothering your eyelids as if attempting to open them clearly after a ritualistic message in order to see - or to

to wipe

 

You didn’t see anything,

you could have not seen anything

but why … why they you feel –your throat dry

The inner walls of your throats sticking to each other

Friction of thought and the throat is real

You think of nothing else but water

---------------- water… water… water…

Still from the Video - At first you Will Close Your Eyes,. Presented at Artsadmin London 2021